the worst day ever.
OMG.
im so sad,piss and i don't know lah
it's like all my hard work and effort is going down the drain.
WTH.
JL didn't want me and shamin to play today.
and it's like we are against xinmin.
what the hell he is doing.
i got no idea.
MY FIRST REACTION WAS "huh????"
from then on,me and shamin were like some good childy listening to him
and not even voice out that we wanted to play badly.
damn him.
i wanted to cry out loud and tell him i wanna play.
BUT,i really don't know what to say.
okay,finally i can't take it anymore.
i was like asking yvonne to follow me to the toilet
and she didn't.
i know that my tears was going to flow out sooner or later.
i was like "ferlycia can follow me go toilet first."
i said that for like thousand of times.
finally vic followed me.
i told vic how i feel and it's like OMG!
WTH!
damn him.
i managed to play.
but what happened before the competition really affected me alot.
my eyes were like so tired,because i cried before that.
OMG.
i tried my very best to play
but the mood wasn't there.
me and shamin were feeling so low.
and i can swear the we actully can defeat our opponents.
but we lost in the end.
AND THE BEST THIS WAS THAT JL DIDN"T COME UP TO US
AND TELL US WHAT"S OUR MISTAKE OR WHAT SHOULD WE DO.
thanks alot man,JL
do he know that we have the confidence to beat xinmin.
do he know what we want.
do he even know that we want to get into national damn badly.
do he know all these.
i doubt so.
i even ask myself what went wrong.
i did my own reflection.
and i was damn angry with myself for not winning the double match.
i don't really know what to do now.
JL said that he is not going to us play on thursday.
i don't think that i going to give a damn.
anw,i going to leave the team soon.
and i really do miss the days that we had our team outing.
so,
SJC JIA YOU.
AIM FOR NATIONAL NEXT YEAR.
THE GREAT PLEASURE IN LIFE IS DOING WHAT PEOPLE SAY YOU CANNOT.
